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The next day the police came to get more details and questioned me about Mr. Jaids. There were four officers this time, it was a little intimating. One person was a sign language interpreter, another was in charge of worked with a special chart they had, since I could sign, write or talk..I only had my eyes. It was even more advanced then the hospitals it was in a big spiral notebook and had common used phrases and words along with added words I might need to reference like. Mr. Jaids, My mom, Gideon.
She would be pointing out words and watching my eyes or head to nod. Once she got the word or letter she read the words out loud to the room and a man would enter them into a type writer to keep records. The fourth man was a detective in plan clothes. He was a larger middle aged man, something about him I don't know the way he looked at me when he entered the room was...it was off.
I wondered what happened to officer Kate when I asked. The Detective, Detective Bisk said he was in charge of my case now. They gave me some time get used to the chart while they set up in the room. I assumed by now Mr. Jaids had told them his side of things and all about about the affair we had. I was hoping to clear the air and tell my side of things.
Eon asked to sit in. I agreed, it was going to be hard with him in the room..I didn't even want to imagine it without him. I wasn't sure how much he knew, he'd probably heard rumors by now, if not I'd rather he heard it from me. I knew he'd have questions after but it was only fair he knew if he was going to stay in my life.
My mom wanted to be there but she couldn't make it at the last minute. She had to do something a my sister's school. I was glad she wasn't here I felt like it would have been a lot to talk about it in front of her. She would definitely have an option. I knew I'd probably hear it at some point but I already had so much going on right now.
The detective started off by asking me to tell him my story, in my own words. He wanted anything I could remember that might help him with his case. I agreed to help as much as I could. We started of with the night I went missing. He wanted to know the events leading up to that. I used the chart telling him about meeting with Eon, getting in a fight at dinner and Mr. Jaids suddenly showing up outside my window and demanded I meet him in the park. It was a lot but the chart helped.
Detective Bisk asked why I would leave my house in the middle of the night to meet with him. I informed him it wasn't that late that my family was still having dinner but the reason I went out was Mr. Jaids had threatened me. He made it clear he had Eon and my answer sheets from the test we took.I could see Eon was surprised about the tests, he leaned forward in his chair listening. He also showed me a letter he'd send to my mother along with indecent pictures.
Detective Bisk asked me to describe the incident pictures I was refereeing to. I found the question uncomfortable but used the chart to tell them they were sexual photos from an affair we had. I looked to Eon after that. He quickly said, "What did, she say?"
"I'm sorry, son" said Detective Bisk "If you're going to sit in we need you to remain quiet."
He nodded but looked at me confused, I looked down in shame. The detective had the record taker read it back to him. Then he wanted to know how and when this "affair" had started. His mouth said it in a weird way. It took a lot spelling by the time I was done my eyes felt strained. I wished more then every I had my hands.
I told them it started the first time I took Mr. Jaids class. He asked me to stay after on the first day and was very friendly. He was interested in me and wanted to know what candy I liked or things I enjoyed. He made me feel special and could see things were had for me at home and with what happened with Eoon. He offered to be my friend. We would talk and go on long drives. I told him everything about my life. One night he was upset and brought up us having sex with me. He didn't want me to be afraid of sex and said it was good. I felt weird about the whole thing, I didn't want to. I signed I wanted to go home and to stop but he didn't take me home until after. Eon pulled back in his chair and put his hand over his mouth.
Detective Bisk stood shifted his weight as he stood at the end of my bed. For a moment he was silent then asked, "After what?"
I looked at him...did he really need me to spell it out for him literally. I reluctantly looked at the chart, "After he raped me,"
Detective Bisk shook his head, "I don't understand you said you were having an affair and now he raped you. Are you changing your story now,"
"No," I used the chart. "He raped me then we started having an affair,"
"Wait hold up here," said Detective Brisk putting up his hands. "Let me get this straight. Your teacher, Mr. Jaids allegedly raped you and you then decided to have an affair with him."
I knew this didn't looked good. I bit my lip and used the chart responding. "I felt like I didn't have much of a choice."
"It felt like you didn't have a much of a choice," he repeated the words I'd spelled. His mouth moving slowly, "Why didn't you go to the police. Why didn't you tell the center or your parents."
Why hadn't I. Why hadn't I. It was a reasonable question. I should have but I'd been confused. Mr. Jaids had been friendly I needed that class...my life at the time was very closed off. I'd been stupid. I informed him at the time I'd been very confused and lonely. He made it seem like I had a choice but I'd felt conflicted. He'd been nice to me, he'd been the first person I could talk to in a long time and he suddenly just cut off contact with me until I accepted the terms of his friendship.
"So let me get this straight," said Detective Bisk. "He backed off, cut off contact after there was some misunderstanding on your part and then gave you a choice to start a relationship with him."
"I guess." I responded. Eon lightly shook his head and flared his nostrils. I tried not to watch him as I went on, I needed to focus but his opinion mattered to me the most. Maybe it was a bad idea having him here. Maybe I should have used the other chart to tell him what happened before this.
Detective Bisk made a lot of faces as he jotted down some notes then asked me to get into the terms of Mr. Jaids friendship. I went on telling him it wasn't a normal friendship it was mostly sexual. I told them what rules I could remember of the top of my head and explained some of the risky things we did. The sex shop and hotels. Sometimes things weren't so bad, but sometimes he hit me and I felt like it was easier to do a lot of the things he wanted. I thought I might be a masochist. Things went on for a while but when I suddenly learned he was married I felt it wasn't right. I wanted to stop what we were doing" The Detective sneered at this I saw Eon give him a sharp look.
I had to rest my eyes for a second we took a break. Eon was quiet he didn't look at me or sign. I wondered what he was thinking, if he was mad at me. When we started up again. I went on that I confronted Mr. Jaids about marriage but he wouldn't tell me if he was or wasn't. I got upset with him and tried to throw a stapler at him. He beat me with it and left. I tried not to follow the rules to end things but he had me stay after. We argued I learned he was married and I thought that he messed around with all the students.
Detective Bisk had me stop. He wanted to know why I thought Mr. Jaids was with other students. I told him he called another woman up after class. I assumed he did this all the time then and I felt foolish for thinking I was different somehow.
'You were jealous,' Detective Bisk said. "Upset he was giving his attention to other students,"
"No, I don't think so I said. I admitted I confronted him about being with other students and he'd laughed at me. I told him I didn't even like him and realized that was true. I realized he was just a distraction that I was using him to escape from the other issues in my life.'
'So you were using him,' said Detective Bisk he jotted more notes down. "How did he take that,"
He got mad about and pushed me into a wall. He broke a leg off a chair and threatened to fuck me with it. Eon pulled back hard as it was read out lout. He was mortified when I continued detailing how he beat me with it instead, then he forced himself on me again. I could barley walk after. He said it was my fault I made him violent and he ended things. Eon clasped his hands and sunk his head.
"So he ended things with you," said Detective Bisk.
"Yes, I thought things were over, he didn't talk to me alone after that. Class ended and I didn't get my certificate."
'Were you made about that?" asked Detective Bisk, "Mad that he had failed you,"
'No just confused, I didn't know I had failed he said at the beginning I was really smart and would defiantly pass.
"How did you learn he failed you?"
'He came to my house and talked to my mother he said I'd failed and would need to retake the class over again."
The Detective paused then said, "He was in your house talking to your mother, why didn't you tell your mother about the beating...didn't she noticed these alleged bruises of yours and wonder where they came from."
I admitted my mother and I had a complicated relationship. I didn't know what to do...what people might think. I felt conflicted cause sometimes he hurt me and then sometimes it hadn't hurt."
"What happened then?"
"I told them I decided to confronted Mr. Jaids the first day of the new class. He was in his car and said he failed me because I failed. I went to class hoping things would be different but he asked me to stay after class."
"What then, I thought he ended things?"
'I thought so to but he said he was going to educate me, to humble me. He also paid for those classes so he thought he owned me.'
Detective Bisk looked over his notes then asked, "Had you agreed to trade sex for another set of classes,"
I shook my head no. The detective wanted to know where the alleged pictures and video were of us doing things. I admitted he had them all but some were left in alleyways.
He paused for a moment flipped through some notes and "Asked if I was an exhibitionist."
I didn't really know what that was. Eon seemed to I could see he didn't like Detective Brisk after that but held his tongue. Detective Brisk said it was someone who got off on preforming sexual acts in front of others, exposing themselves, public masturbation, public sex...they liked to be watched I shook my head. He then asked how many sexual partners I'd had, if I even knew the number.
I thought that was weird. I informed him I'd only been with two men, Eon and Mr. Jaids.
Detective Bisk shook his head as he wrote more notes. He gave Eon a strange look and shook his head. I don't think he believed me but asked me to go on. He wanted to know how my education went. I told him things had continued the same for a while but permanently ended after I though he drugged me and abused me.
Detective Brisk asked why I thought he drugged me. I admitted to passing out and waking up on the floor with no memory of events. He wanted to know how I knew something had happened. I told him about the video I found. He wanted details of what was on the video. I didn't want to but knew I had to. I went on that he'd put a water bottle in me something I did not want and told him before. I told them he poured wine in me. The Detective asked if I often drank wine. I told him I'd never drank any alcohol. That was the first and only time. He made more notes.
He asked how did I know if I was drugged vs drunk. I explained I recalled having some funny juice. He looked skeptical but wanted me to go on. I told him the video showed him messing with me, writing on me with marker and putting things in me while I was asleep. He took me outside and had sex with me while I was still unconscious, he peed on me and put me by some trash bags on the porch. He wanted to know where this place was and I told him I didn't know how to get back but the cabin belonged to his brother in law who was a doctor.
He asked me to continued after he'd dropped me by the trash. Eon looked disgusted and jumpy. I explained he brought me back in and did other stuff, there was a video where he was holding me and had stuck a beer can in me and then later took it out and stuck in the chair leg he'd saved.
Eon looked like he was going to be physically sick. The Detective looked me up and down focusing on my hip cast. He seemed amazed as he then took more notes. He asked if there was anything else. I informed I didn't know after I saw he'd peed in a tub down my throat, I smashed the camera to pieces.
He wanted to know what kind of camera it was but I didn't not. He asked me what Mr. Jaids thought of that. I went on that we fought. He wanted me to pay him back and I flicked him off upset with what he'd done to me. He broke dislocated my middle finger and that when he called his brother in the doctor.
Detective Bisk wanted the doctors name. I told them I didn't have it but recalled the card he'd given me and where it was at in my room. It had the name and number on it. He said they'd cleared my room and hadn't found anything like that. He told me to go on. He wanted to know what happened when the doctor arrived. I told him he just fixed my figure and I thought he left but when Mr. Jaids pulled a knife on me and threatened to cut my finger off. I learned the doctor hadn't left he stopped Mr. Jaids yelling at him and took me home.
Again Detective Bisk asked why I didn't report any of this. I admitted thought it was over this time for good. The doctor told me Mr. Jaids was dealing with mental illness and sex addiction and to call him if I ever saw him again.
"Was this after classes."
"No," I said.
"So how did you go to class and not see him."
I bit my lip but admitted the doctor said I'd pass. The Detective paused then clairfied.
"So you passed his class without going to it,"
I nodded I knew this was bag. He made more notes then asked what happened next. I told him about the money how I got home and then went to a walk in clinic for my injuries the next day.
He wanted me to go back to the money how much it was, he seemed very interested in that over everything else. I really didn't like Detective Bisk but I didn't know if I could get someone else. I explained it was a thousand in hundred dollar bills. He put his lips together like he was whistling as he wrote it down. Eon was just glaring at him.
Detecive Bisk paused and asked it that is what I normally got. I was confused he paused for a long moment then reworded the question. He asked if I'd ever been charged for prostitution. I shook my head. He asked if I'd ever received other gifts for sex. I told him no but thinking on it Mr. Jaids did buy me things.
He asked what happened after the money and then clinci. I said I eventually got my certificate and took my test. I was surprised to see Mr. Jaids was there. Detective Bisk asked if I called the number and told him I didn't have the card on me. He asked if I called when I got home but I shook my head I worried about the test...and other things.
I told him how Eon and I had met after so long and Mr. Jaids found me eating in a stair well. He took what money I had left from the doctor and threatened me to stay away from him or he'd fail Eon. I looked over to Eon and he seemed to understand things now his gaze shifted from side to side.
I went on that I tried to stay away from Eon but after the test learned Eon wasn't mad at me anymore and I couldn't stay away. I could remember it all now. We got back together. I looked at Eon he was staring off into space.
I went on that Eon and I had talked and that Mr. Jaids must have followed us cause he knew we'd made up and what we were planing. Detective Bisk wanted to know what Eon and I were planning. I told him we wanted to wait for him mom not to be mad but might run away. He jotted this down and asked how I knew Mr. Jaids new. I said he had talked about it when he had me in that room...a garage. Detective Bisk wanted to know whear it was but I didn't know. He wanted details on the room but most of it was foggy and I didn't want to remember what he'd done.
I told him I woke in the hospital and that was it. He nodded then we took a longer break. When he came back he asked me a lot of questions, some were hard and weird. He asked me if I had a history of mental illness and harming myself.. I used the chart saying no. He asked if I had ever prostituted myself anywhere else.. I shook my head confused. He asked me about names and started reading of a long list Dustin Loftman, Andrew Piker, Mic Rider, Martin Paw, David Mins and about two dozen others. I didn't think I knew any of them.
He asked if I had ever lied to the police before. I shook my head. He asked if I had ever stolen. I shook my head thinking that was weird. Then he wanted to know about my stay in the mental ward.
Oh...I froze...having forgotten about that. Detective Bisk looked like he'd caught me or something. I wondered how he knew about that...obviously I'd told Mr. Jaids everything so he could have told them.
I admitted I forgot about that and that I'd hurting myself after being upset about everything that had happened with Eon. They had me go over everything that had happened with Eon. He asked if I'd been working. when Eon and I had sex. I didn't get what he meant. He kept trying to make it sound like I was a prostitute. He moved on asking if had made porn videos and sold them. I was clueless. He asked if I had a trash fantasy about being degraded, gang banged and thrown in a dumbster. I was confused.
Eon got really upset with this and started asking other questions. I could see most of them but caught him wanting to know if I was a suspect in her my own kidnapping. I couldn't believe this...there was no way...did they really think I'd done this to myself. I looked at Detective Brisk, he replied he was just doing his job, investigating and that there were a lot of inconsistencies on my part. He wasn't sure how truthful I was being with him.
Eon asked if I could have a lawyer going foward. The Detective didn't think I needed one he had only one last question. Did I frequent sex clubs, I corrected sex shops. He then said it again he meant sex clubs. I said no but I wasn't sure what one was. I didn't know how it was different from a sex shop. He shook his head, he didn't seem to believe me he jotted down notes and said we'd be in touch if he had any more questions. They packed up and left after that.
I felt...I felt something was very wrong here... Just what inconsistencies were thye talking about. I wish I could know what Mr. Jaids has said. I wanted to talk to Eon about everything but he wouldn't look at me he signed he needed to take a walk and look into some things. He quickly left and I was alone with my thoughts. I felt sick and kept going over things. What had I said that hadn't matched up. I kept thinking of Mr. Jaids saying stop pretending your my victim. I wasn't pretending...but now I wondered if the police believed me or thought something else.
I kept feeling sicker and sicker, at first I was hot then cold. My physical therapist came in for a while wanting to go over my plan. I could barely understand. My mom came in and said the police had talked to her and had lot of weird questions. They had looked through my room again. She asked if I wanted to tell her anything. She looked worried.
I don't know if I'd over done things but I was sweating and finding it hard to understand things. Eon still hadn't come back. A nurse came in and noticed I had a high fever...it was a little off the last time she checked but now it was concerning. Dr. Lemon was out another doctor came in and thought I might have another infection from the latest surgery. I got more and more feverish and they rushed me into emergency surgery.
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At one point I woke to a tube down my throat again. There lights in my face and a bunch of cameras. I thought I was dreaming my mom was there sitting next to me holding me hand, her mouth was moving. Other people were there I wondered if I was dreaming. I passed back out
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When I woke again it was the middle of the night. It hurt as they removed the breathing tube from me. They wheeled me to a machine and I got several scans. They gave me some oxygen up my nose and then I went back to sleep.
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