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One day a few weeks before were were suppose to go on our trip. Chad drove Eon and me out to this flower garden not far from the ranch. All the flowers were suppose to be in full bloom with various garden designs and displays. We walked all around seeing just about every color of flower you could imagine.
One place had a heart made out of rows of rainbow flowers. I thought they were so pretty. Eon also took me to look at some rare blue roses. I always thought those were the best, after a while I realized I loved them all. It was a very beautiful place one such a beautiful day.
I could see rain clouds off in the distance but they were very far away and heading in a different direction then us. After a while it got a little windy, I enjoyed all the different scent and loved walking hand in hand with Eon.
At one point while we were walking he suddenly stopped. I wondered if everything was okay and he dropped down to one knee. I was still clueless as to what he was doing. I thought maybe his shoe had come untied. Then he rifled around in his pockets and I thought he'd lost something and was looking for it. I began to look around when he pulled out a small box with a ring inside. He set it on his knee and signed asked me to marry him.
I covered my mouth in surprise but I didn't answer… I loved him and wanted to spend the rest of my life with him but I worried about his needs, his future. I still had a long way to recovering...I wasn't sure...if...if I ever wanted to have sex again. I was worried I might not be able to feel pleasure and I don't even know where I stood with kids. If I be able to even have them. The doctors said I'd recovered...but I still worried about that aspect of my life.
I'd been getting used to my body again but was still struggling with it. I was still underweight, still getting all of my mobility back. I wasn't at all fit and energetic. I knew Eon had seen me naked but I worried he might not find me...attractive. It to be hard seeing another mans words on the woman you loved. I know it was silly thing to worry about but it was important to me. I didn't want him to feel like he had to choose me...There were other woman out there who...who weren't damaged.
"Well" Eon signed pulling me from my thoughts. I realized I'd just been standing there.
I slowly signed trying to put my thoughts into words. 'I want to say yes but I worried about his future...if...if I would be enough for him. There were other woman who weren't damaged I was unsure about sex and having kids someday."
He just smiled up at me and signing "Any other woman wouldn't be you. Kids are great...but who says we have to have them if we can't, maybe we could adopt one day. Also…" he shifted his gase and stopped signing for a moment. I could see he was thinking something over. He started signing again. "It is not like sex wont be a problem for both of us. I'm just as hesitant as you are. Whatever we do, Song, I just want to be with you. I love you and want my life with you that is all this ring says. I love you and want to spend today and tomorrow and the next day with you. I want to be here during the good times and especially the bad."
I nodded my eyes were already tearing up I signed "Me to. I love you Eon." He just looked up at me and I realized he was still waited for my answer. I quickly signed, "Yes! Yes! Yes!"
He put the ring on my finger and we embraced. We touched our foreheads together and for a moment the future, whatever it maybe be seemed brighter. We'd both overcome a lot...been through a lot. In the end we both wanted the same things to be together.
We walked along a row of wild flowers as the sun was setting and I didn't think life could get much better, in this moment with the one I love...I felt happy. Each and every second was a gift. I'd felt like I'd been in an accident and was finally beginning to see the light beyond the wreckage of these last few years. I looked at some of wind chimes as they swayed in the wind and glistened with the sun, then spotted some pretty flowers. I bent down to get a closer look, they were bright yellow and orange. I closed my eyes and smelled them.
When I opened my eyes the flowers were different, they were they suddenly had little speckles of red all over them. I thought it was weird, I stood up right and turned to get Eon's opinion of them. He was no longer standing but unconscious on the ground. I thought he was having a seizure for a second but he wasn't. My eyes focused on a gash on his head and then a man standing a few feet away. He was in a black hooded sweat shirt. The hood was up, a black scarf hid the bottom of his face but I could clearly see the man's eyes.
His fierce ice blue eyes, I knew all too well. I lowered my gaze to a blood stained metal bar he was clutching in his hand. I quickly realized what he had done. I looked to Eon, he'd opened his eyes. He must have only been momentarily knocked out. His eyes were foggy glossy...He was confused.
I looked back to Mr. Jaids, he lifted the metal bar and looked at me with such intensity. I wasn't sure if he wanted to kill me, fuck me or both, either way I was utterly screwed. I stumbled back in shock shaking my head no…no...no… I fell into the flower beds trampling over them. This had to be some sort of nightmare. I wanted to wake up...wanted Eon to hold me but it was all too real.
Why! Why was he here now after all this time, after all he had done to me.. I thought he was done with me but clearly he was not. Was he really here to finish the job. He stepped up on Eon and then over him, making his way to me. I was the only thing in his sites now. I closed my eyes, I thought he was going to hit me with the metal bar. I pictured him bashing my brains.
I braced for the impact but it didn’t come, I felt him grasp hold of my arm and yank it. I opened my eyes to see he’d dropped his metal bar on the ground. He ran his hand up my arm to my wrist squeezing it tightly. I thought he was going to break it. He focused on my hand and I realized he was after the ring. Before I could react he had his hands on it hand nearly broke my finger ratcheting it off my finger. Pain surged through my hand as he got it, glared at it then me and tossed it.
He let go of my hand but quickly dived down putting his hands under my arms. He he scooped me up and over his shoulder. I could see Eon coming out of it more. Mr. Jaids hadn’t realized he was still alive. Eon’s eyes flickered up still confused. When he saw me he reach out to me. I reached back to him but was quickly getting farther and farther away. Blood was poring Eons head a small pool was forming on ground.
I pounded my fists against Mr. Jaids' back trying to get free, but he wouldn't let go. He smacked my ass hard in response and readjusted me. I watched a group of women come around a giant rose bush and see Eon's body. Their mouths opened wide and soon people were all rushing toward them to see what was going on. Mr. Jaids strode passed them all carrying me thought the garden, taking me out to the parking lot. He walked up to a shiny black muscle car and thrust me into his the passenger seat. He slammed the door shut behind me and I immediately tried to open it but when I searched for the inside handle I found it had been removed.
I couldn't get out this way. I quickly turned and tried to climb out the drivers side. I reached for the drivers door but it opened and I quickly came face to face with Mr. Jaids tented crotch. I could see his member bulging against his tight pants. I looked up at him as he put his hand on my forehead and pushed me back.
He got in then shut his door, trapping me in the car with hims. I turned to my window and banged on the glass. I could see Chad's car a few feet away he was bobbing his head to some music. Some people were running into the parking lot now and it caught his attention. He got out of his car and looked around confused. I banged on the glass as he turned in my direction. He saw me and I signed, "Help Eon. Help Eon"
I felt my seat vibrate as the car started up. I flung to the side hitting the dash as Mr. Jaids backed out quickly. He yanked me back into my seat by the back of my neck and then turned the steering wheel backing up some more before he switched to drive.
I looked back to see Chad behind us. I wanted him to help Eon but he started running after us…his mouth getting wide as he yelled! 'HEY! HEY!'
Mr. Jaids took notice of him, he adjusted his rear view mirror then put the car into reverse and backed up. Chad stopped running towards us and tried to dodge the car but Mr. Jaids hit him. I felt it as the car dove over Chad backwards and then forwards. Mr. Jaid adjusted his stick shift to drive and we shot forward. Chads leg had been crushed but he was still alive crying out on the ground. Sever people rushed to him as we sped out of the parking lot and onto the street. Once we were a few blocks away he pulled back his hood and lowed his mask.
He nearly let go of the steering wheel as he moved his hands about sporadically. I refused to look at them. Through the corner of my tear filled eyes, I could see his mouth move quickly, it kept getting wider as the car sped faster. He was no doubt yelling at me. I braced myself as he frantically weaved in and out of traffic. The car was out of control... he was out of control.
I glanced at him, his face was turning red now and I could see veins in his forehead. He turned the car sharply and I slid in my seat. I caught myself but my head hit the window hard. Pain radiated through my skull as he grabbed my arm and roughly yanked me too him.
He kept one hand on the steering wheel as he violently shook me. When I still wouldn't engage with him he slapped my face. Again I refused to give him what he wanted so he yanked my hair and then roughly grasped my chin forcing me to meet his gaze. He moved his mouth slowly trying to get me to read his lips but I closed my eyes. I would never read another word from him
He move though lanes getting off the city streets and onto the highway. He madly zoomed in and out of lanes as he passed more and more cars. He cut several people off and nearly hit a few others. At this rate we were gonna crash and die. Part of me hoped we would that the car would flip and the windows would shatter, like my heart. Yet once we made it past all the city exits, he lowered his speed to match pace with the flow of traffic. I soon watched the buildings disappear and the scenery turned into open endless fields of land.
I shifted my gaze to the side view mirror, hoping for flashing lights but all I saw was a the beginning of rain. He calmed having successfully gotten away. He looked at me then leaned over, I thought he was going to hit me but he got my seat belt pulling it across me, he buckled me in.
Then he buckled his own before lighting a cigarette. He took a long drag and focused on the road for a few minutes. I stared numbly forward for the longest time only able to think HOW! WHY! EON! EON! I closed my eyes seeing him on the ground. I hoped he'd be okay...he had to be okay. I didn't want to think...I didn't want to feel. My therapist said I needed to feel my emotions but I was overwhelmed.
Mr. Jaids hand suddenly fell on my knee. I opened my eyes as he slid it up my leggings. I felt him brush over my crotch. He patted it, then gathered the fabric up, he flared his nostrils annoyed that the clothes kept him from me. He pulled out a small switch blade and flicking it open. He steadied the steering wheel, put his cigarette in his mouth and went after my legging. He snatched up the thin fabric cutting through it and my underwear. When he'd freed my crotch, he put the knife away and took hold of the wheel again.
The car swerved sightly, as he over corrected. He adjusted and drove for a minute. Eventually he put his cigarette out in the cars ash tray. Keeping one hand on the wheel, he dipped the other between my legs. I knew it was pointless to fight. He patted my sex but pulled on the pubic hair upset. He moved on roughly inserting two of his fingers inside me. I jerked at the sensation, at feeling him sink in. It had been so long since I….felt anything there. He continued to penetrated me and I tightly painfully fisted my hands. He worked me up to where my juices started to flow.
Then he pulled his fingers out and ran them under his nose. He deeply breathed in my scent his nostrils flared before dipping his finger in his mouth. He looked utterly euphoric, for a brief moment it was almost like he was a drug addict taking a hit. I found myself unsettled as I took note of his appearance up close. I hadn't really been able to take a good look at him at the law office and now I was certain I'd seen him that day at the flee market. He'd shaved his hair close. He'd lost weight, a lot of weight, I could see his cheek bones, his ice blue eyes looked more hallow, sunken. He looked like he hadn't slept in ages.
He had an air of madness about him as he shifted his gaze to mine. I forgot my vow of silence, to never read another word that cross his lips as he said “Surprised to see me. You shouldn’t be...I told you, you were mine. That I’d sooner kill you then let you go. You should have returned to me...should have come crawling back on your hands and knees. I was patient I waited...I waited...I even gave you a warning at the lawyers, to stop lying to yourself but you didn’t admit the truth… I told you, you were destroying my life but you didn’t come and now you pull this shit...with the ring. Even if you are trash, you are my trash Song and I wont let him or anyone else take you from me’ He shifted his gaze for a moment then and looked truly haunted...unable, to break free from an all consuming obsession, an undeniable fate. He couldn’t get a Song out of his head.
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