AN/ This is another one that's been on the back burner for a while. I've thought about it off an on over the years but was waiting on various factors. I started it up as a comic a few years ago but took it down deciding to do the book. I still might draw something but I'm getting to a point where I've got to start pruning and choosing, I'd love just keep going forever but yeah lol. Anyway
Perversion's Power
Volume: 1
Paradox
"Sometimes madness is being the only sane person in the room."
Rita Mae Brown/Jane Fulton
Prologue
"NO! NO! I THOUGHT YOU WERE HIM! I THOUGHT YOU WERE HIM!" I screamed at the top of my lungs.
"It's okay," he said staggering backwards. I rushed to him as he clutched his side and collapsed to the floor. There was so much blood! TOO MUCH BLOOD! Yet he didn't take his eyes off mine. "You're okay," he said reaching out to me. His hand brushed my cheek as he continued. "I found you, there were so many rooms so so many. I wasn't sure I'd find you." I could see he wasn't all there. He was looking at me but mumbling to himself.
Was he in shock? I wasn't sure! I didn't know the signs. I ran my hands over him as he laid down on the floor. I saw his body and clothes were singed and realized he'd been tortured. His eyes grew hazy as a pool of blood began to spread out on the floor underneath him. I frantically tried to stop the bleeding but I didn't know how. I wasn't sure if I was making it worse or not. I didn't know what to do! I didn't know what to do! I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!
My heart was pounded in my chest and my thoughts felt like they were going a million miles a minute, everything was happening so fast. Then suddenly to my horror, it began to dawn on me that...that there was nothing I could do for him, for the love of my life, my soulmate. He was dying right in front of me and there was not a thing I could do.
It- this was all my fault! I snapped, "NO! NO!"
I shook my head and began to laugh to myself, like all of this was just ridiculous. What was I thinking! I was being really foolish he...he couldn't die, not like this. I had waited for him, for so long and now that he had found me...now that we were together once more, we- It couldn't end like this! He- He- He couldn't- Once we were awakened, we didn't die so easily. YES! YES! THAT'S IT! What was I thinking? How could I forget? My eyes welled up with tears as I began to madly rock.
Who was I kidding! ALL OF THIS WAS BULLSHIT, THIS WHOLE TIME! I'd been holding out for years hoping I wasn't crazy that this wasn't just some brain injury but what if- What if I was wrong? What if none of it was real and all this time I was just some crazy woman who couldn't keep a grip on reality. What if...What if I had just stabbed the only man who actually wanted to help me!
"NO!" I rasped My lips trembled. "PLEASE!" I pleaded to the universe. "PLEASE DON'T LET ME BE CRAZY!"
I knew what I was saying, what I was asking and what I was hoping for! An eternal curse of endless lives...of endless suffering to be real. Yet I could not bear the alternative that this really was- really was- No! This couldn't be it! I wouldn't let myself think it and lost myself to my delusions! I felt... I felt I could bear the curse, could bear all the suffering, if he just didn't die, not here, not now and NOT LIKE THIS! If- If I knew this wasn't it, then...then-
I broke down realizing he was no longer looking at me. At some point while I was spacing out his hand had fallen from my cheek and his eyes had drifted off to the side. His body was so still now and his breathing was- His breathing was- Was he even breathing? I no longer tried to stop the bleeding and pulled my bloodsoaked hands from his wound. My hand uncontrollably shook as I tried to check for a pulse but I couldn't tell.
I threw my head back as tears streamed down my face and cried out once more, "PLEASE! PLEASE! DON'T LET ME BE CRAZY!"
I waited then as if... as if I were expecting a response, yet the only thing I could hear was the alarm going off. I closed my eyes and then I heard it, quiet at first but louder as it grew closer, laughter...laughter in the darkness!
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